I will always march to my own drumbeat

Well, this past two or three weeks have been extremely busy. My best friend went to Beijing in China, I saw the pictures and I am so jealous! I don't like the Chinese for various reasons, but I would love to go and see the buildings and the great wall of China. I do not want to go there because they have annual dog eating festivals, they poach our rhinos and elephants, and of course their "secret government". They don't have access to any .com websites. The architecture is out of this world though. I got a tourist map online, just out of curiosity.



Then, we had Chinese food the week before she left for China, I got two fortune cookies, that's where I got my heading from. My fortune cookie described me perfectly.



I had my window made smash and grab proof again, it felt like that feeling you get when a door in the house is open and you hear a sound, so, I had to fix my window. It was freaking me out and making me paranoid. The place my dad got for smash and grab quoted my dad R400.00, the place I got was only R280.00. I received great service and decided to mention them on my website, just as a thank you favor.



At work... OMG! I am exhausted all the time. I decided that I want to start a small business, and then make it a bigger one, start another small business, and make it bigger, and so forth and so forth, until I have become a tycoon. I have realized that I am not going to win the lottery or marry rich, so, I have to do it myself. So much for becoming an investigator. It's sad to say good-bye to that dream, because I've always had it, but I am not getting a job, and I am becoming fed up with working at my current job.

I am paid the minimum of minimum amounts, I am doing my manager's work for him, and I am driving my car for R50.00 petrol a day. It's not worth it. I am to good to be here, and I deserve better. Working myself to the edge is not what I planned when I started here, and being stuck with people that have horrible attitudes is going to make me become criminally insane.

My friend and I designed the business' new menu and flyer, with the wrong information we might have screwed it up, but we tried to fix it, once again because the manager mentioned supra has difficulties communicating, but not drinking. My friend worked extremely hard on this project. Kudos to her!

Now for the most embarrassing shopping experience a woman has to endure. I kept my pose but I wanted to slap the shop designer through this window. Who does this?



Its all good and well that women can vote and get out of the kitchen these days, but can't THAT be in a corner somewhere?

My third grey hair. Eish!

My best friend removed "IT". My first grey hair I got in 2010, last year some time I got my second one, and today...

The Past Week...

To start off... There was drama, smiles, happiness, and not that much confusion.

Wednesday was my birthday. I was told I look older than fire... Other than that, I was blessed with drinks, shots, pizza, sparklers, and more shots. Happy days!



Then, at work, I kind of, sort of, was declared a manager. I do everything now, except the administration work. I was cashing up the one night when I saw something funny...



It's supposed to read "Bouncers", I work with idiots. The kitchen staff told me on Saturday that they are unable to make burgers because they don't have the plastic discs that go between patties to make them not stick to each other. My answer: "Just flatten them and grill them..."

It seems that they are either lazy or incredibly stupid.

I on the other hand, along with my best friend, created a new menu. The menu we currently have is printed on newspaper material, and doesn't last long. Along with the horrible outlay and ridiculous unnecessary pictures, the menu doesn't make sense, and it actually confuses people. For instance, the "Specials" are on the last page, and extremely small, the drinks "Specials" are clumsily put on the last page, and there's shit written on there that I've never heard of, and I've been working there a week or two shy of a year.

Then, the interesting part... My horoscope, again... I think I should get into palm reading or something, I'm getting obsessed. I was supposed to meet my soul mate on Saturday. That's funny. Instead of meeting someone I worked the whole day and then had Chinese food with friends and watched the latest "Twilight" movie along with "A Dangerous Method". I need to watch them both again, we were talking too much. I have to add, Keira Knightley should have won an Oscar for that performance. Brilliant!

Today was April Fool's Day. I got my mom and my dad with "I'm pregnant". They actually got excited which is sad, because I want a kid and they want grandchildren.



I had to look April Fool's Day up, so copied and pasted from Wikipedia, here it is:

April Fools' Day is celebrated in different countries on April 1 every year. Sometimes referred to as All Fools' Day, April 1 is not a national holiday, but is widely recognized and celebrated as a day when people play practical jokes and hoaxes on each other.

In France and Italy, children and adults traditionally tack paper fish on each other's back as a trick and shout "april fish!" in their local language ("poisson d'avril!" and "pesce d'aprile!" in French and Italian respectively).

The earliest recorded association between April 1 and foolishness can be found in Chaucer's Canterbury Tales (1392). Many writers suggest that the restoration of January 1 as New Year's Day in the 16th century was responsible for the creation of the holiday, but this theory does not explain earlier references.

Precursors of April Fools' Day include the Roman festival of Hilaria, held March 25, and the Medieval Feast of Fools, held December 28, still a day on which pranks are played in Spanish-speaking countries.

In Chaucer's Canterbury Tales (1392), the "Nun's Priest's Tale" is set Syn March bigan thritty dayes and two. Modern scholars believe that there is a copying error in the extant manuscripts and that Chaucer actually wrote, Syn March was gon. Thus, the passage originally meant 32 days after April, i.e. May 2, the anniversary of the engagement of King Richard II of England to Anne of Bohemia, which took place in 1381. Readers apparently misunderstood this line to mean "March 32", i.e. April 1. In Chaucer's tale, the vain cock Chauntecleer is tricked by a fox.

In 1508, French poet Eloy d'Amerval referred to a poisson d’avril (April fool, literally "April fish"), a possible reference to the holiday. In 1539, Flemish poet Eduard de Dene wrote of a nobleman who sent his servants on foolish errands on April 1.[5] In 1686, John Aubrey referred to the holiday as "Fooles holy day", the first British reference. On April 1, 1698, several people were tricked into going to the Tower of London to "see the Lions washed".

In the Middle Ages, New Year's Day was celebrated on March 25 in most European towns. In some areas of France, New Year's was a week-long holiday ending on April 1. Many writers suggest that April Fools originated because those who celebrated on January 1 made fun of those who celebrated on other dates. The use of January 1 as New Year's Day was common in France by the mid-16th century, and this date was adopted officially in 1564 by the Edict of Roussillon.

Iranians play jokes on each other on the 13th day of the Persian new year (Norouz), which falls on April 1 or April 2. This day, celebrated as far back as 536 BC, is called Sizdah Bedar and is the oldest prank-tradition in the world still alive today; this fact has led many to believe that April Fools' Day has its origins in this tradition.

The April 1 tradition in France, Romandy and French-speaking Canada includes poisson d'avril (literally "April's fish"), attempting to attach a paper fish to the victim's back without being noticed. This is also widespread in other nations, such as Italy, where the term Pesce d'aprile (literally "April's fish") is also used to refer to any jokes done during the day. In Spanish-speaking countries, similar pranks are practiced on December 28, día de los Santos Inocentes, the "Day of the Holy Innocents". This custom also exists in certain areas of Belgium, including the province of Antwerp. The Flemish tradition is for children to lock out their parents or teachers, only letting them in if they promise to bring treats the same evening or the next day.

Under the Joseon dynasty of Korea, the royal family and courtiers were allowed to lie and fool each other, regardless of their hierarchy, on the first snowy day of the year. They would stuff snow inside bowls and send it to the victim of the prank with fake excuses. The recipient of the snow was thought to be a loser in the game and had to grant a wish of the sender. Because pranks were not deliberately planned, they were harmless and were often done as benevolence towards royal servants.

In Poland, prima aprilis ("April 1" in Latin) is a day full of jokes; various hoaxes are prepared by people, media (which sometimes cooperate to make the "information" more credible) and even public institutions. Serious activities are usually avoided. This conviction is so strong that the anti-Turkish alliance with Leopold I signed on April 1, 1683, was backdated to March 31.

In Scotland, April Fools' Day is traditionally called Hunt-the-Gowk Day ("gowk" is Scots for a cuckoo or a foolish person), although this name has fallen into disuse. The traditional prank is to ask someone to deliver a sealed message requesting help of some sort. In fact, the message reads "Dinna laugh, dinna smile. Hunt the gowk another mile". The recipient, upon reading it, will explain he can only help if he first contacts another person, and sends the victim to this person with an identical message, with the same result.

In Denmark, May 1 is known as "Maj-kat", meaning "May-cat", and is also a joking day. May 1 is also celebrated in Sweden as an alternative joking day. When someone has been fooled in Sweden, to disclose that it was a joke, the fooler says the rhyme "April April din dumma sill, jag kan lura dig vart jag vill" (April, April, you stupid herring, I can fool you to wherever I want") for April 1 jokes, or "Maj maj måne, jag kan lura dig till Skåne" (May May moon, I can fool you into Scania) for May 1 jokes. Both Danes and Swedes also celebrate April Fools' Day ("aprilsnar" in Danish). Pranks on May 1, are much less frequent. Most Swedish news media outlets will publish exactly one false story on April 1, for newspapers this will typically be a first-page article but not the top headline.

In Spain and Ibero-America, an equivalent date is December 28, Christian day of celebration of the Massacre of the Innocents. The Christian celebration is a holiday in its own right, a religious one, but the tradition of pranks is not, though the latter is observed yearly. After somebody plays a joke or a prank on somebody else, the joker usually cries out, in some regions of Ibero-America: "Inocente palomita que te dejaste engañar" ("You innocent little dove that let yourself be fooled"). In Spain, it is common to say just "Inocente!" ("Innocent!"). Nevertheless, in the Spanish island of Menorca, "Dia d'enganyar" ("Fooling day") is celebrated on April 1 because Menorca was a British possession during part of the 18th century.

Druid Horoscope - Hazel

Some people believe that eating the nuts from the hazel tree can create visions, greater awareness, and amazing insights into life. This unusual tree with its distinctive, curly branches is said to contain ancient knowledge. The Hazel represents creativity and imagination, and the Celtics held it in high regard as a source of artistic inspiration. Despite this unique tree's appearance and meaning, Hazel people are usually rather hard to notice at first glance. They prefer to keep it low key; they are calm, quiet, and overall, nearly invisible. However, if someone makes an effort to get to know them a little bit better, they will find Hazels to be very charming and full of virtue.

Hazel people don't get involved in conversations and rarely speak their mind but when they do, they draw the most unexpected and unconventional conclusions. Hazels have their own opinion about everything. They can intuitively sum up a situation very easily.

In their youth, Hazels are sensitive and reserved. Later in life they acquire seemingly magic powers that allow them to masterfully manipulate others. They become so skillful and adept at it that their ability remains completely obscure and unnoticeable to even those they manipulate.

There are two types of Hazel Tree people, and they are polar opposites: the majority is warm-hearted, kind, and wise. At the same time, there are a few ill-minded villains who can destroy a person's life out of idle whim. These particular Hazels can be wrathful, irrational, and even cruel.

When in love, Hazels will do whatever it takes to make their loved one happy. However, if they happen to fall out of love, their ex will become their number one enemy, and Hazels will make them pay for all the pleasure they once had. Hazel people don't need anybody in order to feel happy or to feel miserable. Sometimes emotionally unstable, this sign is torn by passions. They are their own best friends and their own worst enemies.

Hazels create their own mythology; they like to color the truth. Often times they lose track of their own mistruths, or go too far in their fantasies. These people are very careful to never disclose their own true thoughts; however, they are very good at reading others and they use this talent to their advantage.

Oddly, considering their amiable and warm persona, Hazel Tree people don't always care very deeply about humanity in general. Life with a Hazel Tree person can be tough, but it is never dull.

Hazels are usually fast learners. Their intuition is impeccable. They unfortunately lack natural, easy-to-express kindness and compassion for others, but if they can learn to develop their positive traits, they will find inner harmony and respect.
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My Horoscope Today

This is so true...

You like to be in charge, Aries. That's one of your most prominent characteristics. But as a leader, you want your subordinates to fulfill their responsibilities. Right now, though, someone who is part of your team isn't doing what he or she is supposed to be doing. While you could lecture this person on responsibility and so on, it probably wouldn't do much good. Neither would emphasizing to this individual your role as leader. That leaves you to carry the burden and get things done. At least you know that what needs to be done will be done right.
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Happy St Patrick's Day!

I have come to the conclusion that I can not handle my alcohol anymore. Friday, after having a double Vodka and Creme Soda, I called St Patrick's Day something else... Harry Potter Day.

Wow.


Anyway, I worked an eleven hour shift. And then drank a bit, people bought me alcohol. It was horrible actually. I can not stand Tequila anymore, which is funny. I used to love Tequila.

The Irish bands were awesome! I took a photo at Drop Zone with my Drop Zone friends, and I will post it as soon as they upload it.

It wasn't as fun as last year though, luckily I got a hat and a T-shirt.

Snails Have Teeth

I had Snapple today, the pink lemonade one. Its been over three years since I've had pink lemonade.

On the inside of the cap it reads:


This fascinated me. Then my search took me to http://animals.howstuffworks.com/marine-life/snail-info.htm

How do snails eat? Snails have teeth, but they are not like any teeth you’ve ever seen. Nearly all snails have radulas (RAJ u luhz). Radulas are hard, ribbonlike organs that look like tongues. Radulas contain rows of tiny teeth. Some snails have just a few teeth while others have thousands. As these teeth wear away over time, they are replaced by new ones. Snails don’t chew their food. Instead, they use their radulas to grind, grate, and tear it.

Just thought I should share this with everyone.

Car Wash Mania

I'm sitting at the car wash, trying to make time pass. This is taking forever.

My boss gave me a mission, take the car to the car wash, because criminals stole the car, it has been retrieved, and now the car is painted in fingerprint powder. Its black all over, inside and out.

The funny part of the day was, when I was sitting in the car wash, whilst the washer was hosing off the car. It hit me. The water. The car is not waterproof. I was soaked. Don't know why I took a shower this morning...

My problem is not taking the car to get cleaned, my problem is the cleaner demanding money. I've already paid for the service, and a tip is always needed fort someone who works hard and gets paid the minimum of minimum wage. But the way he "asked" for money is ridiculous and almost offensive.

He is slow, he loses concentration the whole time, and then walks around to go chit-chat with every one.


On a high note, my best friend started working with me today, as a waitress. She lost her job, and I thought that she might need spending money, so, I kind of forced her. Peer pressure works like a charm.

She'll get is easily, we've waited together before. And she made enough money today for two packets of cigarettes.

Last night we designed a new menu, the one at the restaurant is a bit outdated. She did most of the work. I supervised. Smiley face.

Now to get it to the owner.

Challenge accepted.
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Always moving forward. Always looking back.

Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on. - Henry Rollins

I have realized these days how fragile life is, how vulnerable people are, and how cowardly we behave in any case.

I was brought up extremely racist. "All blacks are criminals". "Don't trust blacks". Since I've been in the USA, I have worked on my problem. And racism is a problem. I have problems with many races, and religions also. But I've tried so hard, and come so far.

And then came my set back. Almost hijacked. Could have been killed.

Black mother effer.

Now I'm back where I was. And I don't want to be here. I want to see the bigger picture, realize what is true and what is not, and move forward again. The horrible thing is, my dreams, or nightmares. Killing, murdering, wiping out entire races. My dreams haunt me. But they make me feel like I got closure. That's the scary part. I like it. I like revenging my enemies. Even if it is only in my imagination.

I keep dreaming that I drove over him, the hijacker, I drove over him, and I knew he was coming, I planned his murder, and I felt better.

If I had driven over him in real life, would I have saved lives?

That is always the question, I think. If you kill someone in self-defense, did you save a life? Maybe two? Maybe he would have been caught after murdering you, and you wouldn't have saved lives. But there is always the risk, isn't there?

If someone gets caught for stealing, how many times did he steal before getting caught? If someone gets caught for making child pornography, how many children did they molest before being caught?

How many ex-convicts are caught for latter crimes? Could it have been prevented?

We should always stay positive. We should smile, and be friendly, be delightful, give money to the poor, help the homeless, and basically feed the roaches.

In India, if women can't afford having children, and they fall pregnant, they will break their children's limbs to make them look disabled, or burn out their eyes with acid. In many Hindu traditions, spiritual seekers, known as sadhus, beg for food. This is because fruitive activity, such as farming or shopkeeping, is regarded as a materialistic distraction from the search for moksha, or spiritual liberation. So, living off of other people is better than to work for yourself?


How many days will a beggar beg before seeking a job? That is a real riddle. This riddle is unsolvable. There is no answer. But the truth is, if you feed the roaches, they will never leave. People complain about roaches, but they keep feeding them. If you give them money, they will expect money the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that, until we stop feeding them, or they are removed. Can the country really support a population of 50,586,757 with a 25% unemployment rate?

That means that 12,140,821 people do not have an income.

While people do not have income, others that have an income do not want to work. They strike for more income, but do less work. Why does a working man refuse to work for his salary, whilst an unemployed man seeks work for food? Another unsolvable riddle.

I want to build a future for myself and the people in this country. If I can build an empire, a business that is unsinkable, I can succeed. But where to start? How to decide what to do? How to change the ethic work standards of a country?

I can not employ 12,140,821 people, but I can make a difference, and one day I will. I'm either going to be a Sir Richard Charles Nicholas Branson, or I am going to be a Adolf Hitler. But either way, I will make a difference.

Our approach to existential risks cannot be one of trial-and-error. There is no opportunity to learn from errors. The reactive approach — see what happens, limit damages, and learn from experience — is unworkable. Rather, we must take a proactive approach. This requires foresight to anticipate new types of threats and a willingness to take decisive preventive action and to bear the costs (moral and economic) of such actions. —Nick Bostrom

Shavathon 2012

This year was the first year that I participated in the Shavathon. Its for cancer.

You either shave your hair off, or you spray it. Seeing that I've been growing my hair back, I decided not to shave it off. Woohoo!