Brain activity written down: February 2011

Monday, February 21, 2011

I am Somebody's Stalker?

My life these days go like this: I sleep the whole day, wake up, get ready for work, go to work, go drinking, go home, spend time on the internet, sleep the whole day... And once a week I plan on changing my routine to study, exercise, diet, see friends, and do something worth writing of in this "nobody cares" blog.

So, on Tuesday (February 15th) life changed a bit. I met a new somebody, I don't call him somebody for privacy reasons, but because I can't remember his name for the life of me. His number is saved as "Dude" on my cellphone, and I remember his last name, but I don't know which spelling to use. I don't have him on Facebook, but I know where he lives.

It took me two weeks and R400 to find out that his name is Shaun. On St. Patric's Day he called me, he was looking for me. We went to go visit his mother in hospital on her death bed. Cute. He took me to meet his mother, because he knew she wouldn't live long. On Sunday, 20 March, his mother died. He borrowed money to bury her, and my car to get to work. Shhhh! Don't tell my dad.

He's not rich. He has intimacy and trust issues. I phone him when I'm drunk.

But I like him.

And St. Patric's Day was awesome!

Monday, February 14, 2011

A new year, starting off slow

First post of the year, and its February already. To recap on what has been going on, I failed one of my modules from last year, so, I'm not getting my certificate, funny thing is that it was the module I knew the best, I write so slow, that is why I failed, I didn't even get half way on the paper.

I enrolled for my next certificate: Anti Corruption and Commercial Crime Investigation, I started reading some of the books, and I have to say, it is the most interesting books to have. It includes crime scenes, how to investigate crime, how to interrogate suspects, collection of evidence, processing of evidence, court structures, laws, and my favorite, everything about ballistics and violent crimes.

More exciting news, I saw Rammstein on the 11th of February. It was awesome! I couldn't see much, and we decided to move to the back, I saw a little bit, the lights and flames were satisfying enough, so I am happy!

I am still single, although I am interested in a few horses. All of them just live too far away.

What I am more interested in is the "end of days" stories that are flooding the internet. I am a full blown atheist now, but I would love to have an ice age or some large scale catastrophe in my life time. There has to be something, there was the black plague, then the crusade murders, then all the hundreds of wars that killed thousands, and I think, in my life time, something huge has to happen, and I want to survive it.

Just my imagination...

OK, back to earth. I have new ambitions in life. I want to become an air hostess, or try for the police or army again. Because apparently, when the army says they don't accept applicants older than 23, it doesn't mean that they don't accept applicants older than 23.

And I STILL need to post more about my road trip.

Aye! Time flies...

Lessons in Life

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care some people just don't care back.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And, just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt, and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.