Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on. - Henry RollinsI have realized these days how fragile life is, how vulnerable people are, and how cowardly we behave in any case.
I was brought up extremely racist. "All blacks are criminals". "Don't trust blacks". Since I've been in the USA, I have worked on my problem. And racism is a problem. I have problems with many races, and religions also. But I've tried so hard, and come so far.
And then came my set back. Almost hijacked. Could have been killed.
Black mother effer.
Now I'm back where I was. And I don't want to be here. I want to see the bigger picture, realize what is true and what is not, and move forward again. The horrible thing is, my dreams, or nightmares. Killing, murdering, wiping out entire races. My dreams haunt me. But they make me feel like I got closure. That's the scary part. I like it. I like revenging my enemies. Even if it is only in my imagination.
I keep dreaming that I drove over him, the hijacker, I drove over him, and I knew he was coming, I planned his murder, and I felt better.
If I had driven over him in real life, would I have saved lives?
That is always the question, I think. If you kill someone in self-defense, did you save a life? Maybe two? Maybe he would have been caught after murdering you, and you wouldn't have saved lives. But there is always the risk, isn't there?
If someone gets caught for stealing, how many times did he steal before getting caught? If someone gets caught for making child pornography, how many children did they molest before being caught?
How many ex-convicts are caught for latter crimes? Could it have been prevented?
We should always stay positive. We should smile, and be friendly, be delightful, give money to the poor, help the homeless, and basically feed the roaches.
In India, if women can't afford having children, and they fall pregnant, they will break their children's limbs to make them look disabled, or burn out their eyes with acid. In many Hindu traditions, spiritual seekers, known as sadhus, beg for food. This is because fruitive activity, such as farming or shopkeeping, is regarded as a materialistic distraction from the search for moksha, or spiritual liberation. So, living off of other people is better than to work for yourself?
How many days will a beggar beg before seeking a job? That is a real riddle. This riddle is unsolvable. There is no answer. But the truth is, if you feed the roaches, they will never leave. People complain about roaches, but they keep feeding them. If you give them money, they will expect money the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that, until we stop feeding them, or they are removed. Can the country really support a population of 50,586,757 with a 25% unemployment rate?
That means that 12,140,821 people do not have an income.
While people do not have income, others that have an income do not want to work. They strike for more income, but do less work. Why does a working man refuse to work for his salary, whilst an unemployed man seeks work for food? Another unsolvable riddle.
I want to build a future for myself and the people in this country. If I can build an empire, a business that is unsinkable, I can succeed. But where to start? How to decide what to do? How to change the ethic work standards of a country?
I can not employ 12,140,821 people, but I can make a difference, and one day I will. I'm either going to be a Sir Richard Charles Nicholas Branson, or I am going to be a Adolf Hitler. But either way, I will make a difference.
Our approach to existential risks cannot be one of trial-and-error. There is no opportunity to learn from errors. The reactive approach — see what happens, limit damages, and learn from experience — is unworkable. Rather, we must take a proactive approach. This requires foresight to anticipate new types of threats and a willingness to take decisive preventive action and to bear the costs (moral and economic) of such actions. —Nick Bostrom
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