I'm sorry

I think I did a horrible thing.

My heart is broken, although I'm quite drunk, I'm crying, but I'm not crying because I'm drunk.

I'm a rat.

I ratted out a friend...

A good friend.

I found his drugs.

I had to report it.

I'm going to miss him.

A LOT.

He went to rehab.

I thought he was clean.

I wanted to believe him.

SO BAD!

But I found it...

I feel like a dog.

I don't want him to go.

I'm sorry.

I'm very sorry.

I'm very sad.

It feels like someone ripped out a piece of my chest.

And I did it.

My bosses and managers are proud of me.

I'm not proud.

Tears flowing down my cheeks.

Snot clogging up my nose.

Gerrie.

I'm sorry!

I wish I didn't find it.

I wish I didn't tell.

I wish you didn't do it.

I wish you stopped.

I hope you get well.

I love you, always will.

I'm sorry.

Thank you for Eminem.

I had to get this OUT.

I had to tell someone.

Love you.

Please forgive me.

Work aint that bad!

We had some fun the past few weeks. Fist off, the managers snipped hair, apparently the bartenders' hair were too long...


Then, my friend and I designed a flier and a new menu for the shop. Came out very fancy, I think.


Then, I saw our Captain from a weird angle, thought it was funny. Looks like a weird beat box to me...



I like being here. It get rough sometimes, and I won't be here forever, but its a hell of a lot of fun!

Oreshki!

Finally I found the food that ruined my body! I found two recipes for this cookie, and Google translate sucks! Well, basically its cookie shells, and cooked condensed milk that you call "Dulce de leche". The cookies are baked in molds (see the bottom picture). I want one for Christmas



The first recipe:

NEED
For the dough:
flour - 3 tbsp.
Egg - 2 pcs.
sugar - 1/2 tbsp.
margarine - 250 g of
soda - 1/4 tsp.
salt - 1/3 tsp.

COOKING
cooled protein beat until foamy , sugar, rubbed with yolk. Baking soda, salt, melted margarine, rub the flour until smooth. Recipes and cooking pastry cream filling, "Seeds" can be found in many cookbooks. You can use this recipe for condensed milk - 1 tin, kernels - 200g. To prepare the filling for cookies, "Nuts," a closed jar of condensed milk boil for 2 hours, cooled, and, having opened, mixed with chopped nuts. You can also fill with nuts cream cakes and tubes: 2 egg yolks pounded with 1/2 tbsp. sugar, add 2 tbsp. l. flour and 1/4 cup. cold milk. All this mixture, stirring gently, pour into a vessel of boiling milk (0.5 liters). Remove from heat, add 50-60 grams of butter and vanilla. Fill pastry cream "Nuts", wafer rolls only after cooling cream. How to use this form to pastries, "Nuts," type "Chestnut" (with handle): Before baking a new form should be washed, boiled in water, placing the water in contact with all test surface, except for the rods and handles, and then grease the inside with vegetable oil and heat. Fill in the form of deepening cookie "Nuts" to 1/3 of the volume, close the form, removing any excess with a knife or spoon test. When baking the form must be periodically turn over every 30-45 seconds. Bake cookies "Nuts" for 1-2 minutes. Ready cookies "Nuts," opening a form, pour it on the table or on a platter. Refrigerated cookie halves filled with cream, jam or other filling, and then connect.

The second recipe:

Dough:
3 cups flour
2 eggs
200g margarine or butter
1/2 cup sugar
¼ teaspoon baking soda
1/3 teaspoon salt

Vanilla eggs with sugar, add the melted margarine / butter, vanilla, baking soda (to pay off in a teaspoon of vinegar). By adding the flour, mix all thoroughly until smooth. Before baking, the tiles should be lubricated inside with vegetable oil and preheat. Fill in the deeper recesses in the third volume of the test, close the form and remove the excess dough. Cover the tiles need to turn flipping through the form of 30-45 seconds. The duration of 1-2 minutes of baking. cream: 1 can of condensed milk Nuts Closed tin of condensed milk to boil in a saucepan with water 2:00, and the water should completely cover the jar. Chill evaporated milk and mix with crushed nuts.

I told you... Google Translate SUCKS!!!

I will always march to my own drumbeat

Well, this past two or three weeks have been extremely busy. My best friend went to Beijing in China, I saw the pictures and I am so jealous! I don't like the Chinese for various reasons, but I would love to go and see the buildings and the great wall of China. I do not want to go there because they have annual dog eating festivals, they poach our rhinos and elephants, and of course their "secret government". They don't have access to any .com websites. The architecture is out of this world though. I got a tourist map online, just out of curiosity.



Then, we had Chinese food the week before she left for China, I got two fortune cookies, that's where I got my heading from. My fortune cookie described me perfectly.



I had my window made smash and grab proof again, it felt like that feeling you get when a door in the house is open and you hear a sound, so, I had to fix my window. It was freaking me out and making me paranoid. The place my dad got for smash and grab quoted my dad R400.00, the place I got was only R280.00. I received great service and decided to mention them on my website, just as a thank you favor.



At work... OMG! I am exhausted all the time. I decided that I want to start a small business, and then make it a bigger one, start another small business, and make it bigger, and so forth and so forth, until I have become a tycoon. I have realized that I am not going to win the lottery or marry rich, so, I have to do it myself. So much for becoming an investigator. It's sad to say good-bye to that dream, because I've always had it, but I am not getting a job, and I am becoming fed up with working at my current job.

I am paid the minimum of minimum amounts, I am doing my manager's work for him, and I am driving my car for R50.00 petrol a day. It's not worth it. I am to good to be here, and I deserve better. Working myself to the edge is not what I planned when I started here, and being stuck with people that have horrible attitudes is going to make me become criminally insane.

My friend and I designed the business' new menu and flyer, with the wrong information we might have screwed it up, but we tried to fix it, once again because the manager mentioned supra has difficulties communicating, but not drinking. My friend worked extremely hard on this project. Kudos to her!

Now for the most embarrassing shopping experience a woman has to endure. I kept my pose but I wanted to slap the shop designer through this window. Who does this?



Its all good and well that women can vote and get out of the kitchen these days, but can't THAT be in a corner somewhere?

My third grey hair. Eish!

My best friend removed "IT". My first grey hair I got in 2010, last year some time I got my second one, and today...

The Past Week...

To start off... There was drama, smiles, happiness, and not that much confusion.

Wednesday was my birthday. I was told I look older than fire... Other than that, I was blessed with drinks, shots, pizza, sparklers, and more shots. Happy days!



Then, at work, I kind of, sort of, was declared a manager. I do everything now, except the administration work. I was cashing up the one night when I saw something funny...



It's supposed to read "Bouncers", I work with idiots. The kitchen staff told me on Saturday that they are unable to make burgers because they don't have the plastic discs that go between patties to make them not stick to each other. My answer: "Just flatten them and grill them..."

It seems that they are either lazy or incredibly stupid.

I on the other hand, along with my best friend, created a new menu. The menu we currently have is printed on newspaper material, and doesn't last long. Along with the horrible outlay and ridiculous unnecessary pictures, the menu doesn't make sense, and it actually confuses people. For instance, the "Specials" are on the last page, and extremely small, the drinks "Specials" are clumsily put on the last page, and there's shit written on there that I've never heard of, and I've been working there a week or two shy of a year.

Then, the interesting part... My horoscope, again... I think I should get into palm reading or something, I'm getting obsessed. I was supposed to meet my soul mate on Saturday. That's funny. Instead of meeting someone I worked the whole day and then had Chinese food with friends and watched the latest "Twilight" movie along with "A Dangerous Method". I need to watch them both again, we were talking too much. I have to add, Keira Knightley should have won an Oscar for that performance. Brilliant!

Today was April Fool's Day. I got my mom and my dad with "I'm pregnant". They actually got excited which is sad, because I want a kid and they want grandchildren.



I had to look April Fool's Day up, so copied and pasted from Wikipedia, here it is:

April Fools' Day is celebrated in different countries on April 1 every year. Sometimes referred to as All Fools' Day, April 1 is not a national holiday, but is widely recognized and celebrated as a day when people play practical jokes and hoaxes on each other.

In France and Italy, children and adults traditionally tack paper fish on each other's back as a trick and shout "april fish!" in their local language ("poisson d'avril!" and "pesce d'aprile!" in French and Italian respectively).

The earliest recorded association between April 1 and foolishness can be found in Chaucer's Canterbury Tales (1392). Many writers suggest that the restoration of January 1 as New Year's Day in the 16th century was responsible for the creation of the holiday, but this theory does not explain earlier references.

Precursors of April Fools' Day include the Roman festival of Hilaria, held March 25, and the Medieval Feast of Fools, held December 28, still a day on which pranks are played in Spanish-speaking countries.

In Chaucer's Canterbury Tales (1392), the "Nun's Priest's Tale" is set Syn March bigan thritty dayes and two. Modern scholars believe that there is a copying error in the extant manuscripts and that Chaucer actually wrote, Syn March was gon. Thus, the passage originally meant 32 days after April, i.e. May 2, the anniversary of the engagement of King Richard II of England to Anne of Bohemia, which took place in 1381. Readers apparently misunderstood this line to mean "March 32", i.e. April 1. In Chaucer's tale, the vain cock Chauntecleer is tricked by a fox.

In 1508, French poet Eloy d'Amerval referred to a poisson d’avril (April fool, literally "April fish"), a possible reference to the holiday. In 1539, Flemish poet Eduard de Dene wrote of a nobleman who sent his servants on foolish errands on April 1.[5] In 1686, John Aubrey referred to the holiday as "Fooles holy day", the first British reference. On April 1, 1698, several people were tricked into going to the Tower of London to "see the Lions washed".

In the Middle Ages, New Year's Day was celebrated on March 25 in most European towns. In some areas of France, New Year's was a week-long holiday ending on April 1. Many writers suggest that April Fools originated because those who celebrated on January 1 made fun of those who celebrated on other dates. The use of January 1 as New Year's Day was common in France by the mid-16th century, and this date was adopted officially in 1564 by the Edict of Roussillon.

Iranians play jokes on each other on the 13th day of the Persian new year (Norouz), which falls on April 1 or April 2. This day, celebrated as far back as 536 BC, is called Sizdah Bedar and is the oldest prank-tradition in the world still alive today; this fact has led many to believe that April Fools' Day has its origins in this tradition.

The April 1 tradition in France, Romandy and French-speaking Canada includes poisson d'avril (literally "April's fish"), attempting to attach a paper fish to the victim's back without being noticed. This is also widespread in other nations, such as Italy, where the term Pesce d'aprile (literally "April's fish") is also used to refer to any jokes done during the day. In Spanish-speaking countries, similar pranks are practiced on December 28, día de los Santos Inocentes, the "Day of the Holy Innocents". This custom also exists in certain areas of Belgium, including the province of Antwerp. The Flemish tradition is for children to lock out their parents or teachers, only letting them in if they promise to bring treats the same evening or the next day.

Under the Joseon dynasty of Korea, the royal family and courtiers were allowed to lie and fool each other, regardless of their hierarchy, on the first snowy day of the year. They would stuff snow inside bowls and send it to the victim of the prank with fake excuses. The recipient of the snow was thought to be a loser in the game and had to grant a wish of the sender. Because pranks were not deliberately planned, they were harmless and were often done as benevolence towards royal servants.

In Poland, prima aprilis ("April 1" in Latin) is a day full of jokes; various hoaxes are prepared by people, media (which sometimes cooperate to make the "information" more credible) and even public institutions. Serious activities are usually avoided. This conviction is so strong that the anti-Turkish alliance with Leopold I signed on April 1, 1683, was backdated to March 31.

In Scotland, April Fools' Day is traditionally called Hunt-the-Gowk Day ("gowk" is Scots for a cuckoo or a foolish person), although this name has fallen into disuse. The traditional prank is to ask someone to deliver a sealed message requesting help of some sort. In fact, the message reads "Dinna laugh, dinna smile. Hunt the gowk another mile". The recipient, upon reading it, will explain he can only help if he first contacts another person, and sends the victim to this person with an identical message, with the same result.

In Denmark, May 1 is known as "Maj-kat", meaning "May-cat", and is also a joking day. May 1 is also celebrated in Sweden as an alternative joking day. When someone has been fooled in Sweden, to disclose that it was a joke, the fooler says the rhyme "April April din dumma sill, jag kan lura dig vart jag vill" (April, April, you stupid herring, I can fool you to wherever I want") for April 1 jokes, or "Maj maj måne, jag kan lura dig till Skåne" (May May moon, I can fool you into Scania) for May 1 jokes. Both Danes and Swedes also celebrate April Fools' Day ("aprilsnar" in Danish). Pranks on May 1, are much less frequent. Most Swedish news media outlets will publish exactly one false story on April 1, for newspapers this will typically be a first-page article but not the top headline.

In Spain and Ibero-America, an equivalent date is December 28, Christian day of celebration of the Massacre of the Innocents. The Christian celebration is a holiday in its own right, a religious one, but the tradition of pranks is not, though the latter is observed yearly. After somebody plays a joke or a prank on somebody else, the joker usually cries out, in some regions of Ibero-America: "Inocente palomita que te dejaste engañar" ("You innocent little dove that let yourself be fooled"). In Spain, it is common to say just "Inocente!" ("Innocent!"). Nevertheless, in the Spanish island of Menorca, "Dia d'enganyar" ("Fooling day") is celebrated on April 1 because Menorca was a British possession during part of the 18th century.