Ice Queen

Well, its getting cold, very cold. And my new handbrake keeps on promising to come keep me warm at night, but nothing yet, our relationship hasn't matured to that level yet. My hands and feet are frozen, but at least I'm happy... Kind of happy... I am glad that I'm studying, and that I finally found someone, and that our Wi-Fi works, but then again, my dad fired our maid. She was stealing our food and clothes.

I am the maid now, not that I'm complaining, I suggested it. I like cleaning, I just don't like being used or told to do something, I want to do it out of my own goodwill. My dad's laziness is whats bothering me. Do this do that, my goodness, if we could chew his food for him he'd tell us to do that. He doesn't clean after himself, or help anywhere around the house, he just orders everyone around. He hasn't done the dishes in years, never mind ironing his clothes or just taking out the trash.

Except for that, life is pretty sweet. My friends and I went to the bush veld again this weekend, was fun, except for the cold, rainy weather. And the fact that none of them know how to smoke in a car, I swear I could've committed murder, thats how mad it makes me. If you're going to smoke in a car, at least smoke out the bloody window, and don't keep your cigarette in the middle of the car, and if you exhale the smoke, don't blow it in my face, not even speaking of all the ash on my back seat. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The boyfriend and I... Well, we like each other, but I'm not even sure if we're going out. He hasn't asked me out, or changed his Facebook status to "in a relationship" yet, but I'm hoping that this would be a long term thing. I just need a good cuddle right now, its really getting extremely cold, and I get cold easily, which makes it worse. It will also be nice to get hugs and kisses, valentine's presents, and have dates, and not having to go to parties is a big PLUS!

And the funny thing is, we've talked about sex so many times, and I really think ravaging him would satisfy my hunger for a long awaited intimacy. And then fear strikes again, 2 years ago I slept with a friend, and well, it was anything but good. Not to be too mean or superficial, he had a very small terinterin. About a minute into the game, I just rolled over and told him that I was over it. He didn't think it was funny, but I can't stand it when I can't even feel him. So, I'm hoping the new one at least has something to fuss about.

He actually seems like spouse material. He has a job, he can cook, he's interesting enough, he's mature, and he is independent. But only time will tell if he can keep up with me. I am a handful, not very high maintenance, but definitely fussy. Oh, and I'm still going to get my tattoo. Just have to save my money and track down the guy that I want to do it. It's a pretty one, and it defines who I am. I stand for justice, and that is why I am studying forensics, and will continue to study it.

Oh, I almost forgot, my friend from Germany is coming to visit me. We're going on a road trip through South Africa. I am extremely excited, she is too. It's going to be beautiful, and hopefully we have nice weather.

That's it for today.

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